The 900 pound man; The Lord's provision verses ours

I just watched a show about a 900 pound man. This morning when I wake up I feel The Lord saying to me when I am tempted to overeat that it is the same spirit that killed that man of gluttony. So I felt I was supposed to say out loud, "What fellowship does light have with darkness. In The name of Jesus I rebuke the spirit of gluttony in this house forever." (2 Corinthians 6:14) Lust and gluttony are often connected. My wife had a dream in the same night. She was in this castle and whenever someone thought about a certain food, a waiter came a delivered it to them. My wife loves to serve, and so she tried going in the kitchen, but the servants did not allow her to lift one finger, she insisted, but they would not change. God gives us what we need, He desires to give us good gifts, all we have to do is receive them. It is not our job to go and manufacture The Lord's provision, that's up to Him, because He alone knows what we need. He's not into over supplying, but in meeting our needs. Though I've known The Lord to give abundantly, it is not so we can spend it on our own pleasure. In fact, if we do, we may get in the way of the Lord providing. (James 4) Just like in the dream, The Lord knows what we need even before we ask. (Matthew 6:8) I just pray that we'd allow God to provide the way He wants, and that we'd not get in His way. We will never be able to out serve Him, for we will never be God.

Lord I need you

Romans 12 verses 1 & 2 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. And do not be conformed t this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. This is the scripture that came to me this morning after breaking a fast. Then when I came down stairs after praying with my wife about this, she read Max Lucado’s daily devotional, Grace For The Moment, and today’s scripture is 1 Corinthians 6:19 19 Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? As Max says, we don’t want someone to trash our house, so don’t trash God’s house, which we are. I’m on a fast right now. Two days ago, thinking I was between 16 and 19 years of age, playing kick ball with the kids. I was rounding 3rd base headed home when a cute little 7 year old decided to walk right in front of the freight train, that was not slowing down real easy. So I had a choice. To plow into a 59 pound little girl, with my 250 pounds, or take a fall. I took the fall. Ouch. My rib. Yesterday I was walking up the stairs with a silver serving tray with two pizzas on it, as if I were serving a god, and I couldn’t see the stairs, I thought they kept going, so I hyper extended my knee, or something that hurts really bad this morning. After checking with my doc this morning, I am going to be fine, just sore...maybe for a really long time. Was it worth it? No. OK, so I’m not 16, or 17, not even 18 or 19. I am 47. I now have a different set of callings than I did when I was younger. Husband, father, I have a job. But this remains, I am a Christian. I am His. This scripture came to me yesterday: Romans 12:3 For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith. 4 For as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function, 5 so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another. 6 Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, let us prophesy in proportion to our faith; You see I am not my own, I have been brought with a price, His perfect sacrifice, the one where He laid His life down for mine. Trash for treasure. He did that, for me. I can be a freight train with my will intact. I can mow over my opponents with great weight. Instead of letting The Lord have His way. With everything I have my way in, I am like a freight train, mowing over whoever just happens to get in the way. I need Jesus to be my words, not measure them, but be them. I need Jesus. “Lord I need you, everyday I need you.” In the morning, in the evening. With every thought I can’t contain, with every moment of pain, Lord, I need you. If the enemy is going to attack us, let us not give him any ammunition, any opportunity. So if I am fasting, I shouldn't be eating. I should be doing what He has called me to do, at all times, in every way. Without exception, without excuse. Lord, I need you.

Content to be who He made me to be, at this time in my life

I think I am between the ages of 16-19, still believing that all things are possible, which in part is good, except when it's not The Lord speaking. Romans 12 just came to me literally after I started this! Romans 12:3 For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith. 4 For as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function, 5 so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another. 6 Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, let us prophesy in proportion to our faith; When we operate in the Spirit anything is possible, because it's Him at work in us, and not us! (Philippians 2:13) So yesterday I go out to play kickball with the kids, and some neighborhood kids. I am not 16. I am not 17, 18 or 19. This year I will turn 48. That's almost 50, almost. Wisdom at some point should take over, but sometimes my desire wins out. I was rounding 3rd headed for home when it happened. She, the cutie with the sheepskin on, got in the way, it was either cream her, at 59 lbs, verses 250 pounds, or take a fall. I took the fall. Today I can feel the cracked, broken or bruised rib, not sure which, and I am REALLY sore. Moving is an issue! As the above verse states, I need to learn my place. I need to keep in that gifting and calling that God has put me in. Not me has put me in, but God has put me in. "Lord, let me learn my place in You. It's a good place, and I need to be content to stay right where you put me. Cause it's the right place. In Jesus Name, amen."

With God all things are possible.

155 days ago I was ousted from an organization I helped start. Not that I'm keeping track...(I actually had to do the math) My wife had cancer, no pay check this whole time, but in all of that, I have still felt the Lord holding my heart. It has been an amazing ride. A combination of Joseph, being betrayed by his brothers, visions and dreams, and Job, losing all that he did. But yet I can see how even in a prison cell, Jesus is still there, in charge, just like He was before prison. Instead of waking Jesus during the midst of the storm, to save the boat and our lives, I decided, through the grace of God, that I'd just walk with Him on the water through the storm instead. As we approach actually starting the new org we've been working on since March 1st, (The 155 days ago!) I don't want to lose track of all He did, and is doing, and all that He said He would do in the future. Angels at our house, prophecies, miracles of provisions, healing. There have been so many signs, that if I had not written them down, there would be no way for me to remember them all. Our God is so good, so faithful, so true to His word. I am looking forward to seeing what He will do. There's not much I can do, but wait, then there's a promise attached to that, Isaiah 40:31 "Yet those who wait for the LORD,Will gain new strength;They will mount up with wings like eagles,They will run and not get tired,They will walk and not become weary." All those are things that are impossible, but what is impossible with man, all things are possible with God. (Matthew 19:26)